Disarm the yetzer hara
glue our natural scanner to 13 attributes of mercy instead
The mind is
constructed with fear of abandonment and fear of annihilation embedded in the
unconscious and subconscious mind, and our senses scan, projecting where we may
need to preserve ourselves onto the scenes in time and space. This nature is how the Soton, who is in
charge of nature, is able to so easily invade the privacy of our mind, through
the unconscious and subconscious, causing us to experience anxiety, anger,
panic, outrage and more as human experience for which we need to go into
action. Without Torah, we would listen
to the good advice of the yetzer hara, our best lawyer, our friend, the one who
has our best interests at heart -
revealed truth is these “kickbacks” are worth it to the yetzer hara so that our
souls go along with the deeds that keep us trapped in the kelipas of desire and
honor, taiva and gaiva, thereby giving access of holiness to feed the lower
realms of evil. If someone were to
propose an investment for us of our money into a fund that was also selling
weapons to our enemies, we would never invest in it. Why, then, do we succumb to whisperings of
the yetzer hara?
When Moshe Rebbeinu went up to receive the Torah, the angels argued with Hashem, why are You involved with mankind? Why give the holy Torah to flesh and blood? The angels are the same angels that did not want Hashem to make mankind at the time of creation. Their goal is to convince Hashem to scrub the project, that mankind cannot possibly serve the role that Hashem desires, to be the entrée into time and space in this lower world that Hashem desires, wiping off the mask of nature in order to reveal His Glory. Hashem tells Moshe, grab onto the throne of Glory and answer them, to which Moshe begins to tell the angels that mankind needs the Torah, that we are the ones on the front line, that we can bring Hashem’s Glory into the world with free willed choice. We DO have the Torah. And we ARE made in the image of Hashem’s 13 Attributes of Mercy. We do NOT have to believe the illusion of darkness that comes over us when our fears are triggered. We CAN glue our imagination to the truth that happiness comes from Torah Avoda and Gemilas Chesed, learning Torah, praying fervently to Hashem that all we want is Him in this world, and emulating His 13 Attributes of Mercy. The rough landscaping of our lives that is triggered – our patterns, our anxieties, our blocks, all formed out of the instinctive fears of abandonment and annihilation. |
The “cure” is to comprehend
deeply more and more over time that being a soul is eternal and that we are
constantly loved by Hashem and have intrinsic value because His is the only
currency. His Glory fills the world.
Keeping the 9th commandment Do Not Bear False Witness means we can bring ourselves up from feelings of humiliation by remembering that we are not abandoned or annihilated because we are made in His Image, and that the other person who is exerting power and influence to subjugate us is also made in Hashem’s image and may only be reacting to their own fears of abandonment or annihilation without their realizing it. In fact, it may be so buried in both of our unconscious and subconscious that on the surface all we have are the time and space relatable conditions and concerns. But often these reach a stalemate, for in the end, it boils down to one subjective view versus another subjective view. When we bring Hashem’s 13 attributes into the picture and remember that all parties are made in His Image, we have submitted to the truth, that all there is in the world is Hashem and our task is NOT related to another in time and space based on survival messages. Our survival is in the hands of Hashem alone, for the place of the world is Hashem’s mind. When we have clarity about that, we can move our sense of esteem from survival and self-aware goals of entitlement and honor to effort to reflect Him into the world by adopting Torah as the genesis of our emotions, speech and deeds. Our scanner must be taken from the hands of the one running our unconscious and subconscious and be given over to our conscious choice and then connected to serving Hashem. We can do so by understanding how we are constructed and that all of our anxieties, angers and negative emotions stem from something that inherenetly is not true, but only designed to give us free will. May our efforts to identify with being made in the image of Hashem’s 13 attributes of mercy become our experience of pleasure and happiness and may the light we shine bring a new light to the world. |